I thought the title would suit the nature of this post. Yes, I’ve been absent from this blog for quite sometime. Last week I had finals so that ate up most of my time and caused my stuttering to go from manageable, to down right frustrating. I’ve also been dealing with my sister C being in the hospital the week before finals till today, where she will be released later this afternoon which is wonderful news! I know I shouldn’t allow my stutter and anxiety to control me, which is where my friends have been helping me. Whether it’s allowing me to vent or just taking my mind off it completely by having our rambling moments, I always feel better after busting out laughing. I guess they were right, laughter truly is the best medicine.
On another note, its #NationalPuppyDay so all you dog owners out their snap pictures of your babies and upload them onto social media! :)
These couple weeks I have been going to this youth group for bible study and i didnt think it would be good but it is. I was procrastinating if i should do it for years and i finally had the courage to step out if my confront zone and be around people who are similar and have the same idea as me. Looking back when i was scared to try anything new seems kind of funny because you gotta step out of your comfort zone or do somthing that you normally wouldn’t do to get that full experience of life. Were not going to live forever so there is no point of sheltering yourself from somthing you never did or try, but dont do anything stupid because im pretty sure you want a healthy steady life than a raunchy, trashy life. The key ingredient and the only thing is courage and that can be broken down to many things but its the basic and everyone can do this but it will be different for everyone but on the good side, you have a blast. As always stay awesome and stay FABULOUS!!!!!!!!!
Sometimes the right moment can be very deceiving. It may look like you have the moment because everything seems to be going ur way but that’s how deception works and its fun when ur sucked into to it but when u fail, it really hurts ur heart and it might change you to be stronger but it is always good to know the difference between them. When i stutter, i usually think im in the right moment to talk but on most cases that’s no tge case because my stutter interferes but i learn from and get better at it. The thing with moments is that it is always happening 24/7 and they will never stop until mankind is destroyed or gone but until that, dont revolve your life around one moment because u got so many far more ahead. And a ‘ll ways be cautious of what thst moment means cause it has a chance to change ur life if u want it or not but that’s the fun part about growing. As always stay awesome and stay FABULOUS!!!!!!
Seventh Lion Clan
So the Seventh Lion is a group of people who are leaders, and not just any kind of leaders but inspirational leaders. They stand for good and never leave anyone behind or judge of who they are as a person. There might be all types of groups out there but the one thing that separates the seventh lion crew from them is Honesty. Honesty creates trust and that is hard to find now in days but we always need that person to have are back, even at are worst times in life, its goid to have that person there to pick you up on your feet and encourage you to keep on going. We sometimes get caught up in yhe world of “Whats new and cool” or “insecuritys”. The Seventh Lion is a reminder to let us know that we are all unique in are very own different ways and we shouldn’t let people dictate that. The Seventh Lion crew us a prime example of getting the best people who are the underdogs in are today’s society. As always stay awesome and stay FABULOUS!!!!!!!!
Last Saturday I got back into refereeing Youth Soccer (football), and I thought it would be pretty easy since I was the linesman and not the Center Referee. Little did I know that all three games were for an ongoing tournament and for points. Well that realization hit me in my first game. In the form of one very angry parent. 50 yards running back and forth doesn’t seem too taxing, but when you haven’t worked out in a long time your legs feel like jelly. First half went easy however with the visitors losing, their parents weren’t too happy with my offside calls, so much so they let their opinions be heard.
Mad parent number one started huffing and puffing, literally. Then Angry Parent got fed up and said, “Bah stupid AR” I ignored him as were trained to. Then he took it a step too far. Angry Parent proclaimed, “Gringo’s don’t know how to ref!” I whipped around and moved my hand in a downward motion and sternly responded staring in his eyes, “Sir, either remove yourself away from this game, or I will have you escorted” Thankfully he choose the latter :)
Second game was a snap nothing to report really nice kids, coaches, and parents.
Third game was like Barclays Premier League status. These kids were flying around like mini-Messi’s and Ronaldo’s. My legs felt like they were going to collapse or just rip off. Then it happened. Defender pulls the shorts of the attacking player with the ball and trips him sending him sprawling in the penalty box. I signal the call and look to my Center for confirmation, he nods and points to the spot. The uproar was like being a told Trafford during a Manchester United vs Chelsea match. I wasn’t fazed though, because its my job to make the tough calls.
We all know that the green monster is usually a meaning for jealously. Its like a virus that comes from anywhere. Its a poison to society but again its a wake up call for those who want to move on. Also jealously can be used in many ways but the real challenge is passing through your anger and just wait for your greatest moments and the jealously will be thrown out of the window. Me as someone who stutters do sometimes gets jealous of people who talk fluently because u wish I can talk like that but i block that because i know someday i will talk fluently, so why care what someone else does? Its a principle in life that gets overlooked alot cause of the environment or the people we hang around, but again were humans so making mistakes is normal but the best thinking that comes from it is from us learning from it. As always stay awesome and stay FABULOUS!!!!!!!!!!
Mistakes are very common and we do them so much to the point that we dont realize them. Its also easy ro let these mistakes haunt us and let them dictate of how we live on a normal bases. The past works in a similar way because most dont know or recognize of what they do in the present is actually controlled by what they did in the past. This needs to stop because we shouldn’t act like the past controls. Yea it happen but its time to move on because that is how life works. Some people stay and some go. We can try to fight it but its best to let it go. Tge good thing about the past isc that it teaches us of what we dud and how we cannot do that in the future but it is also hard to perdict the future because each day is a new and we should treat it like that. Let all your worry and sadness be for today but dont carry them on to tomorrow. Im not that person who has experinced everything in life but i see it and i watch it, and the world is fascinating but it us also cruel but its those few who are strong that can overlook look it and be on there best everyday without being told how to feel or what to be. As always stay awesome and stay FABULOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hi everyone hope you’ve been doing well, and your Valentine’s Day was awesome! We Seattlities aren’t used to the glowing orb in the sky, so turning to stone is a high probability. Seattle pandemic aside (haha) I’ve noticed I’ve been having moments of shyness and extraversion. For example, in my Math class our teacher was talking about the American Civil War and I blurted out, “1861-1865 Northern for Southern families pitted against each other in all out warfare, many lost their lives and their stories have been told while others silenced. I’m a reenactor and reenactors are cool.” Then someone in the back said, “This guy is dopetastic” I replied, “Thank you I’m a history buff”.
The moments of awkwardness I’m still trying to work through. For example, when my Mom and sister C went to my highschool to watch a fundraiser show called, “Dance for Heart” that benefited Heart Disease awareness. My sports medicine teacher Mrs. W who’s really cool, was there and at the end of the show my Mom said I should go say hi to her. Now I’ve never been good with these situations, it’s not even a fear of stuttering its more it just feels weird. That probably didn’t makes sense but we’ll role with it. So me and C went up to the stage towards Mrs. W but she was like all over the place going this was and that.
C is more of an extrovert then me so she went on her mission, while I stood there awkwardly like umm what should I do? After regrouping with my Mom she told me, “James you just have to go for it like C” then C said, “Ya James like me!” So there we go with C in the lead and we got Mrs. W’s attention and she gave us a hug. After saying hi to a few of C’s friends, we then proceeded to our car on our way home. An awkward moment for me, where my sister C lead the way into battle, yet again. Maybe I could learn a few things from my sister, well hopefully.
Letting people go or forgetting about them is one of the most hardest things to do in life. Choosing of who you should be around and who you should stay away. Sometimes its obvious because you see the red flags of why this person isn’t right for you and at other times, it is very hard to see or is very deceiving. Its a choice that is forced upon us whether we like it or not and that choice cares weight. This makes us think too much or try to foresee the future but in reality no one can’t predict the future. Each day is a new beginning. Worrying more about the future than the present is a good way to make you confused or paranoid. Leaving people might be the only choice in certain situations but if that person is really close to you, then you will see them again and on better cercamstancies to. Its a win win situation but it comes down to timing and being patient. I have experinced this but i have faith that we will meet up later but i just got to be living my life and to better myself as a person. As always stay awesome and stay FABULOUS!!!!!!!!!!!! And always remeber to stay true to yourself.
Today is Super Bowl Sunday where the Seattle Seahawks vs. New England Patriots. Considering the whole fiasco with the Patriots #deflategate scandal, hopefully the game will be played fairly and without a lot of controversy. Sorry I haven’t been posting as often as I usually do, I’ve been dealing with a nasty cold bug that refuses to leave the recesses of my lungs. On a side note, I recently finished the book that I’ve been reading for about six months. I hope everyone is enjoying there Sunday and I wanted to ask, who are you rooting for to win the Super bowl and why? I’m rooting for Seahawks because one Beast Mode and his magical bag of Skittles, and two I live in Washington so GO HAWKS! :) – James